So, I've been feeling pretty down for a few years now.
Because I didn't finish school. In fact, if you didn't know, I flunked out of school. Pretty pathetic, right?
I think i've finally gotten to a point where I can take full responsibility for how completely lazy and unmotivated I was in school. My low GPA that put me on Academic Suspension was entirely my own fault. I had stopped going to classes and stopped caring and it is one of the biggest regrets of my life.
As someone who had always been a good student (top 5% of my HS class, thank you very much), I have been so disappointed in myself.
Not to be a braggy-braggerton or anything, but I was accepted into all 3 BYU's. All three!!!! That's not that easy! And yet I blew it.
Ok. Enough self-pity.
Anyway, i've decided that I REALLY need to rectify this problem. I literally feel like i'm getting dumber and dumber all the time and going back to school is the only answer! I had intended on starting at Salt Lake Community College in May, and had my enrollment done and everything, but that was before I knew I was going to be in my third trimester of pregnancy. Yeah, not happening.
On top of that, car payments, baby/pregnancy bills, and hoping to buy a house in the next year? Where are we going to get the money for school?! Not to mention the fact that Brad thinks my want for a degree is pretty unnecessary :(
Ok, I'll get to the point.
Free courses! BYU has an independent study program, where you can pretty much take as many courses as you like, whenever you want, which is just perfect for me! But at around $120 a credit, it's not so affordable right now. AND most places won't give you a student loan or financial aid for courses like this. My plan is to save enough money to take just one course at a time, until I can save up for the next course. (Taking online surveys, selling my stuff, leftover money from the monthly grocery budget, etc. . .)
Until then, they offer some courses for free. They don't give you any college credit, but I think they may help fill the academic hole in my heart right now.
I just feel like i'm at such a stand-still and I have this deep NEED to keep learning.
My degree may take quite a while to finish going this route, but at least it's something.
Call me lame, but i've just signed up for my first two free courses:
Basic Arithmetic: Part 1 (there are 4 parts. I know math, but I think it'll be good to sharpen my skills)
Study Skills (I OBVIOUSLY need this course anyway!)
If anyone wants to take a free course with me, let me know! How fun would it be to go over stuff together? Here's the site to see what they offer.
Wish me luck!