Sunday, November 16, 2008

Lights Out

Not really much to report.
Brad and I actually hung out with people on Friday!
We had a little mini-casual dinner thing on Friday night which was pretty fun.
We ate pizza and played Apples to Apples.

Saturday, Brad, Ana, my brother Paul and I all went to Big Juds in the morning.
Brad and I shared a regular Big Jud, while Ana had a small hamburger and my brother ordered a Double!
He wasn't very hungry to being with though, so he only got through half of it.
Then I had to work for pretty much the entire rest of the day.
Work wasn't too bad though, for a saturday.
After that, Brad and I just sat in my room and watched the newest episode of The Office, Smallville, and SVU.
We rarely watch TV, so it was pretty different.
Then I went down to Rexburg this morning and went to church with Brad since my branch was having stake conference.
Then we just kind of chilled.
Ate some pasta.
And now we're sitting in my room watching a movie.
Sadly, I have to work from 9:30-5:30 tomorrow, so our evening will have to be cut short, which sucks.

Anyway, that's really about it.
I'm really starting to be ok with the whole "Having to postpone the wedding" thing.
It really has relieved some stress and gives me more time to get things ready without having to be super quick about it.
Though, honestly, I would get married to Brad tomorrow if I could.
But it's cool.
I can be patient to marry the love of my life.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Let the rain fall...

It's been so rainy up here lately, and I LOVE it!
I don't even care that it's so cold, I simply love rain.
Growing up in a rainless desert for my entire life probably contributed to this love, though I seem to hate snow, but there's just something so peaceful and calming about rain.
The other night, Brad wasn't able to come down to Idaho Falls, and Karen and the kids were out, so I was home alone.
It was raining pretty hard outside, and even though it was about 35 degrees outside, I opened up my window, turned off my music and any other noise in the apartment, and just listened.
I love listening to the rain and I can never get enough of it.
Anyway, it's supposed to continue to rain for the next week or so, so i'm pretty excited.

Work is going well.
I still seem to be coming home super sore, and i've been there almost a month now, but hopefully it will go away eventually.
I know it doesn't seem like being a cashier would make you sore or require any kind of physical strain at all, but you haven't been a cashier at Sam's Club.
It's intense. Lol.

January 3rd is fer shiz the wedding date, though the reception is still up in the air.
If we can get married earlier in the morning, we might be able to have the reception that night, but otherwise, Brad and I might just have to fly down to DHS the following weekend for a reception.
I still plan on going down to D-town for Thanksgiving though, so perhaps i'll have an engagement party or something else somewhat traditional like that.

There's really not much else going on.
Brad is amazing as usual.
I'm as cold here in Idaho as usual.

Oh, and Laura, if you're reading this, that last video of Avery was the cutest thing ever.
I miss Jordyn and Avery so much!!!!!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

I think that possibly, maybe i've fallen for you

I probably shouldn't be blogging right now since i've got to head out for work super soon, but I just haven't updated in like, 5 days, so I figured it was time to do so.

Even though nothing is really going on.

It was great to see my family over for the weekend, even if only for a brief period of time.
I put my wedding dress on hold and put a "deposit" down on it.
If everything goes right today, then to my relief, Brad and I will be getting married on January 3rd.
And in case you're wondering, yes, this is what I was so sad about.
Through a series of unfortunate events, Brad and I had to postpone our wedding and we had no idea what we were going to do.
We didn't know how we were going to get married or when or where and everyone was pulling us in different directions.
It was pretty upsetting.
Anyways, Brad is calling the Las Vegas temple today to re-schedule our time and if January 3rd is open, then that will be the for sure date.
I'm glad that all the bad stuff is over.

Besides that, i've just been working a bunch.
I get money, then have to use it right away, so i'm still not feeling the rewards or money-earning, but i'm sure it will come.
My dad even had my brother give me 200 dollars last Friday, and I immediately stuffed it all into a tithing envelope, since i've been way behind on it all year.
My paycheck from 2 weeks ago went to rent and gas.
It's all pretty lame.
Brad paid my car insurance for me.
But everything will be fine.
If I had more money, I know I would spend it on useless stuff anyways.

Ok. Now i've seriously got to leave for work.
I might update later today.

Thursday, November 6, 2008


Well, work was SUPER long today!
I know, I only worked for 8 hours, minus half an hour for lunch, but still!
8 hours on your feet or moving and lifting crap while saying over and over again "Hello! How are you doing today? Did you find everything alright? Good!"
Oh well.
It's money!
And thankfully Jesse worked for most of the day, which was good.
Because Brittany and Ashley just don't seem to like me at all.
Wendy was there in the morning too, which was good.
At least half of my supervisors are good.
Also, I had my first "mean" customer today.
He wasn't so much mean as he was a little bit rude and ornery.
Let me explain:
He had two separate transactions.
One for his business and one for himself.
So I rang up the purchases for his business and he slid his card through.
It didn't work.
I asked him very kindly to slide it again, sometimes the cards jsut don't take the first time.
But again, it was denied.
I asked him if he was using a Visa card, and he said yes.
I explained to him that unfortunately, Sams Club doesn't accept Visa charge, only debit.
So he told me that it wasn't a credit card, that it was supposed to take the money right out of his checking account.
So, since this sounds a LOT like debit, I asked him to try and run it as Debit.
Then he tells me that he doesn't have a pin number and that he's never needed a pin number to use the card before.
So he slides the card again and it automatically comes up as credit, which of course, wouldn't work because it was Visa.
So i'm pressing as many buttons as I know and nothing is working.
So I explain to him AGAIN, that without a pin number, the card would run as credit, and we don't accept Visa for credit!
He then says "Do you have a manager I can speak with?" somewhat rudely.
Luckily Jesse was walking by right then, so I called him over.
Both the man and myself explained the situation to Jesse and alas, Jesse said the exact same thing to the man that I had said.
The man proceeds to repeat himself over and over "I use this card all the time. Everywhere. I never needed a pin. Blah blah blah."
So finally he just uses his other freaking card which he did actually have a pin for.
Then I rang up his second set of purchases, apologized again for any inconvenience, and smiled as he walked away because he was finally gone!
Anyways, all in all, I do NOT like rude customers.
So, to everyone out there in blog world, PLEASE be nice to cashiers!
Generally, we know what we are talking about and there really is nothing we can do some some situations.
And if there is something we don't know, we'll call our supervisor over.
You don't need to ask to speak to one.

Anyways, in other news, no work tomorrow!
Imma head down to Utah!
Brad is most likely coming with me, since i know he doesn't like me going anywhere alone, so it should be fun.
It's my cousin's Mission Farewell, and even though I won't be able to stay till Sunday, it should still be fun.
My aunt has a "Girl's Night" tomorrow night, where two of my aunts and my girl cousins, and then my mom and sister, who are driving up, are going to be doing crafts or something, so that should be tons of fun!
And it'll give Brad time to bond with the men in my family.
Then hopefully my mom and I, along with my little sister and probably my Aunt Katherine can go wedding dress shopping on Saturday morning.
I've got to work 1:30-close on Saturday unfortunately, so we'll have to leave pretty early in the day, which kind of stinks.
But oh well.
I've got be back for church on Sunday anyways since i've got a meeting with the Branch President Sunday afternoon.
I would just call in sick to work on Saturday so we wouldn't have to leave until the night, but since I called in sick LAST saturday because of my stinking cold, I can't just do it again.

Also, McDonalds monopoly is over and i'm pretty bummed.
Oh well.
There's always next year!

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Lo Siento

I don't like blogging when people are around.
And while Brad isn't just some person, I just like to blog when i'm alone!
And since i've either been at work or with Brad pretty much every second of the day, I haven't been able to blog much.
And with the depression and all, I couldn't find it in me.
But i'm ok now.
Sometimes I just need some time for things to be set in.
And having to comfort someone else usually snaps me out of myself too.
Anyways, I wish I could blog and tell everyone what's going on, but once you blog it, it just seems official.
And since nothing is set in stone right now and still up for change, I won't say anything.

Besides the MAJOR thing going on in my life right now, nothing's really been going on.
Work is going alright.
It's getting harder to go everyday, just because I know I could be spending that time with Brad.
But I really do need the money.
And it gives me something to do while Brad is in classes or whatever.

Money is seriously TIGHT right now.
I'm paying rent to Karen tonight, so there goes 200 of my current 249 dollars.
Then i've got car insurance due TOMORROW.
That's 91 dollars.
And if you can't do math, let me help you.
After rent, i've got 49 buckaroos.
So where i'm getting money for car insurance, I have no idea.
One good thing, my dad FINALLY got the deposit back from where I was going to live in Rexburg before my suspension, and he said I could have it, so once I find time, I can head down to Rexburg and pick up a good hundred bucks.
Which, if I get it tomorrow, I'll have money for insurance!
But then there's the whole 2 speeding tickets thing which I should probably take care of pretty soon.
One's for 232 and the other is for 140.
Then, just to further my monetary complaints, gas.
Luckily gas prices have gone down a bit and I don't really drive anywhere but to work.

I'll stop boring you with my whining.
Prop 8 passed, which is good.
And no, it's not me hating on gays.
it's not even my religious beliefs.
It's the numerous stories of parents whose children in elementary school and below are ebign taught about sex, gay and straight, without any kind of parental consent.
I mean, sure, I don't have children yet, but when I do, I don't want my 5 year old learning about boy and girl sex, let alone boy and boy sex!
That's my job!

Anyways, I think that's about it.
I should head down to Walmart and cash my check.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Vague Sound of Rain

I haven't stopped crying for over a week.
Whether they were visible tears or not, they were there.
They are still there.
And tonight I sat outside on a log in the pouring rain for an hour and just let the tears flow.
I didn't even care that i'm trying to get over a cold.
I just needed to be out there.
To sob as loud as I could and just let the sound of the rain drown out everything.
To let my tears fall freely alongside raindrops on my cheek.
I know that everyone who reads this will be worried and ask me all kinds of questions about what is wrong.
But I don't want to answer them.
Just know that something is wrong.
And while I know it will all be fixed very soon and that everything really will work out for the best, right now it just really sucks and just really hurts and i'm going to just cry.
My arms and legs probably feel like icicles but I don't even care.
I feel numb.

Sorry this is so vague and depressing.